Baby Steps

I've been talking a lot about putting my life in balance. I've debated about telling anyone about what I've been doing to bring everything back into balance, because quite frankly, I was scared I would fail and that everyone would judge me for not making my goals.

I'm still scared of that, to be honest. But I feel like I have made significant progress in a few areas, and I want to share that with others who might be struggling, like me.

First, I wanted to increase my physical activity. I was only walking about a mile a day, and my goal is to get up to five miles a day in cumulative steps. Well, I'm halfway there!! Once I'm walking five miles a day, then I'm going to start adding in some running here and there, provided my knees don't give me too much trouble.

Second, I wanted to lose a significant amount of weight. I tend to use weight to keep people (men especially) at a distance, so I don't risk getting attached to anyone. I realized I've been sabotaging my biggest desire...to have an eternal companion. I'm happy to report that I reached my 25% goal! Not that it's very noticeable yet, but to me, it's a big deal. I plan on sticking with it!

I needed to see an eye doctor, which I have done. I have one eye (my right) that's legally blind without a corrective lens (it hasn't changed since I first got glasses as a youth). However, my left eye more than makes up for the deficit in the right eye. The left eye, though, can't read up close, which my blind eye more than makes up for. Kind of hilarious when you think about it. Except it's not...see, if I wear contacts, then I have to wear reading glasses any time I need to focus up close. If I wear my distance vision glasses (with only one corrective lens...the other is transparent) then I have to keep switching to my reading glasses when I'm trying to look at anything up close. I can't have one pair of glasses with both prescriptions because it would mess up the other eye. Pretty pathetic, huh?

That's it for now...I'll add more later. Tomorrow is my last day of classes for a week, and I can't WAIT! I love college, but I'm exhausted, and I have so many things I need to do around the house...then when we return, I only have five more weeks of the semester to go.