I spent the day yesterday being publicly called names and had my personal life blasted all over the internet by my brother's partner. Emails flew back and forth as my brother and his partner sent hate mail to me, attacking me for trying to take away their civil rights. I guess I know a little now what it's like to run for public office. :-)
What I tried to make a message of love has been received as a message of hate. What I tried to express to my brother in private as my right as an American to disagree with his viewpoint (in response to his PUBLIC request for me to do so on facebook) has turned into a public roast. Despite knowing that I am on the correct side of this issue morally speaking, it kills me to have my family ostracize me and treat me so disrespectfully. My family may never be the same. And though because of my religious beliefs, I am used to being the "odd one out," I don't know that we will ever have the same level of interaction again. It makes me feel really sad, and very alone. I probably should get used to that.
I just don't get what my patriarchal blessing says...that I will be a srength to my family. All I've done with my choices is cause my family to accept me less and less, even though I am trying my best to live a moral life.
Once again, the only one I can count on to pull me through is my Father in Heaven. Maybe that's the purpose of such isolating experiences...to teach us to rely on him more perfectly.
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Your ward is your family. Your friends are your family. You will find strength in your family.
Isn't it amazing how our choices to do what is moral and right sometimes seem wrong. Your family will understand maybe not in this life but in the next. Be true to your faith and you will be blessed in your trials.
Hi April, In this world you will have many trials and tribulations says the Lord, but I have already overcome the world. - Jesus
Remember too that you do not war against flesh and blood but against wickedness in high places and everything evil that exalts itself above the power of God, Aptil. It is christs righteousness in you that they are smearing all over, because their way is within themselves, your just the fall guy for their choice to be who they re. Also was your brother molested when he was a child or teenager, most gays have been molested and then is when the Spirit of homosexuality entered them. Pray for Him for God to deliver him from his sickness and perversion and I will lift you up april. God Bless, kristi
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